why

Sometimes i just wonder why dont i have the chance to have some time for myself?? I just can't seem to understand why did #077 threw tantrum at me out of no where today, I understand that she felt that i prioritize others before her but the fact is I just needed some Me-times, I don't want to get to caught up with us too much and got forgotten by others. Eventhough i dread going out with #105 and told her i couldnt make it today, she then told me it's serious business, and as a friend who can close her eyes driving around PJ, it would help much with knowing the locations of possible business related outlets in my area- Hartamas. Honestly how much I wanted to just sleep in for the night after all the emergency calls I had at work with my high positioned Lamp Berger client who earns 300k a month who stays at Seri Bukit Ceylon Residence.

I also understand she may seem to feel like I'm only coming back to her when I'm done with others, I'm sorry to make her feel this way about me, but I just need her to allow me to have some Me-times in our relationship. Like sometimes, when she feels tired just when i was about to get heated with the topic, and knowing she's really tired, I'll just have to cut everything short, keeping all my opinions and thoughts back in my pig brain. And about the present, shes just gotta stop agitating me on refunding it, as I took how many surfing hoursssssssss to search for it knowing she would love it to death. And sorry if i was being rude this afternoon.

I had a long talk with friend #007 and #105 separately today and yesterday, talking about goals, money matters, mentality, lessons, analyzation of one's behaviour etc etc. I learned alot by exchanging opinions. I hope that I can do that with #077 this weekend. I've got so much things that I want her to give opinions to. And I hope she's not angry with me.

Anyway I brought up the subject about #199, I asked for friends' opinion about it already. Though they think its not the right time yet but somehow, I, almost at the grown up age of 21. I really really want to own something that i like, something i can call it my own. I have not much of 20's to go through anymore, I just want to achieve my set of goals by end of this year. Sighh...

I regretted on fueling up my tank full last sunday, as for now I've only got 20 cents with me in my wallet and a whole tank of fuel. I could have pumped half instead, so that i'll still have 20dollar with me or so :/ And the best part is that I've got a wedding to attend this saturday, which means byebye 50dollar angpow money!