just one more concern, family issues...
i'm so close to close the deal, but sigh i know that alot of dramas will happen eventually after this, and i'm putting it on hold, but i will still have to get back to him in a few days time.. i know in this world, you dont only have to live for yourself, you'll have to live up to so many people's expectation, and i'm starting to get very sick about all these.
can't i just be myself?
Solution Options
- Buy it without family's consent, keep it away from them at anyone's house, dont take it to work (colleagues and my parents are related in business issues), take it out on weekends
- Buy it without family's consent, take it home and my life will be at stake, take it to everywhere, save money on fuel, extra money goes to car installment (as they might want me to be responsible for the car as well, since i'm being RESPONSIBLE for #199)
- Discuss with them before buying it, (answer will definately be a NO)
- Don't buy it, take me to some centre and brainwash it so i will not have memory of buying it.
It's really frustrating having to be paid more or less the minimum wage, and i have to find so many extra ways to increase my income. And also have to control every single penny in your wallet at the end of the month, mind you it is literally EVERY SINGLE PENNY.
Sigh i've too much to regret on in life, not being a good girl and follow the rules at earlier age, not having a proper education, flunk all courses at uni, screwed practically everything in life.... there is no turning back for me, i do not have the courage to go back to my family and beg for studies, besides they would probably lock me in for my entire studying years, and i prolly dont deserve a chance anyway....
Alright too far away from today's topic, So........ now, can anyone suggest me a solution for this?
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