hiatus

i know i know, this is definately not the first time going hiatus, hahaha sorry! I've been real busy with work...... Like really lor! Dont believe meh?

Looking at old blogs, makes me realise what kind of person i was, and makes me feel foolish for jotting down those words. But well, its also life and transitions. i might even find this post stupid in 6 months times. i really find it amazing about this being-in-the-world feeling thing, its so surreal, its like 'this is it, its really happening', dont worry im not high on weed.

I can definately say ive turned over a new leaf, although im still lost, but im defo a good girl. Throughout those rough period, i wanna say sorry dad, ive failed you, im sure that i will never do it again. And to my 2nd brother, im so sorry for all those hatred, i know you were very worried and frustrated,and to my bestfriend, we've been through too much to even describe our brotherhood (applicable for sister too lol), appreciate all those catching you were to do just to get me home, though it did put our friendship into jeopardy. I'm sorry for being so bratty and wanting things my way that you decided to give up on me. I know all these words, are barely enough to show how regret am i towards those foolish behavior. Its sad that you've gone, glad that things went better, you even agreed to meet you with your frienemy, my another bestfriend, till today, they still cant get their hands off each other....'s hair.

my one and only colleague, has finally left us, i know we didnt get along well for almost more than half of my employment period, but i grew to befriend her and we're mates now, definately felt the misery having no one to talk to in office, so many times i talked to myself at my own cubicle, forgot that shes no longer seated opposite me. Well i'm also looking for new jobs now, isetan wants to hire me at the same salary level, but with extra working days and extra miles to work and lastly stupid parking. Im already struggling now, i bet it'll be worse. Though i like that gay interviewer/team leader, i forsee that we'll be bffs. Arghh lets not think about it yet.

I heard an old friend is going through divorce/separation, my heart kinda dropped when i knew about it, when i heard her marriage i was glad that someone actually has control of her and maybe can lessen her irrational behavior but looks like ive forgot that separation is more norm than eating rice nowadays.

in 1week plus time, i'll be going on a trip with z, its actually our first to be exact, as we're always with friends. Cool and s and r are joining us few days later. I cant wait to dive in that gorgeous pool. How i wish i can live by that moment.